" i love you but i dont think its worken out :/ Those words honestly knocked the breath out of me. But to get to the end, we must start at the beginning right?
Times to Forget: june09<3 july27;that night
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I guess it started with the spring break of 09 when i realized i liked him. Every single day me, Addi, Marcus and...CJ hung out. We started off as bestfriends, and i mean close. But then like,everything good it had to end. One night i was talking to him and...he asked me out. I liked him for a while before that so of course i say yes. Everything was going good at first but as we got more serious i got more paranoid and just fought and fought with him cause i never thought he would actually stay true to a girl like me. You should've seen the girls that were after him. I think i had a right to be scared but i know i shouldnt've approached things like that.I was head over heels for this boy and on July 27, i even lost my virginity to him. That whole summer was sneaking out and seeing him cause my dad didn't like him. He was all i wanted, and all i'd ever need. I honestly thought that he loved me too, how stupid can i be? | One day i was talking to him on the computer and...10 minutes before i got his breakup message he told me he loved me. Then i got the message and...i went into meltdown. I immediately called Addi and she came over to my house and tears were flowing and my hair was sticking to my face and from what i hear, i was a mess. I thought he loved me? I thought he couldn't live without me? But the other times i saw him, he wasn't even having trouble breathing. I felt stupid. No, i felt beyond stupid, i just let some guy sweet talk me into something i knew all guys were after. But..maybe it wasn't like that and maybe im over reacting. Today me and moonbear dont talk much..in fact i never really talk to him and he's got a new girlfriend. She gave it up too. I honestly have no regrets in my life and i hope me and him can be cool and be friends like we used to be, but i guess we'll have to see. Ohh, and by the way...i like someone from school.(: |
Love is a strange thing. You think you know when you have it but it just ends up being one of those summer crushes that evolve cause you never see anyone else during that season. Your stuck with that one person so you go for it. It might work, it might not. But, friends are forever. No breakup can change that.
